In the last class my sir told a zen story.
Two monks were walking by a meadow and they saw a shepherd standing on a hill alone. One of the monks said that the shepherd has lost a sheep and he’s looking for that. The other one said he must be looking at his sheep grazing. So they ended up arguing, each saying he’s right. Finally, they decided to go up and ask the shepherd. So they went and asked him why he is standing there. He said “I just felt like standing here”.
That is that – for most of the things in life. Things happen. That is how it is. We need not have a reason for anything. We love somebody because… well, there is no because. It’s not even ‘somebody’. We love. We hate. We get angry. We feel sad. We feel jealous. We feel alone. There need not be any reason for that. See, even we ask ourselves “why am I feeling this, it must be this object/person/thing/event”. We feel so weird getting the emotion, we attribute it immediately to a person, event or thing. Because we are told only crazy people feel angry, sad or happy without a reason. Funny indeed!
How many hours we waste trying to explain why we do what we do? If I say “I feel sad”. Immediately I will face the question “what happened?”. Should there be any reason for feeling sad? I guess not.
Before my marriage, I was in a job which I loved doing and I rarely went home before 9pm. One day I just felt like seeing the sun and reached home by 5.30. My father was so scared. The moment he saw me he asked me “what happened, are you unwell”. I told him there is no reason I just felt like coming home. He touched my forehead, looked at my face (“did somebody say something in office?”) and I never think he believed me till end.
There is fun in being erratic. That way nobody will know what you’ll do the next moment and best of all, you need not explain yourself to anybody. If people call you crazy – great. You can almost get away with anything except may be physical assault.
So what am I trying to say? Nothing. If you want to make sense out of it, it’s up to you. I just said what came to my mind. Nothing more